Last month, on the worst day of my life in 2010 aka the day I went mad becos someone burst at me for no apparent reason, I was talking to Quinten online and he asked me a ques:
Do people change or you just get to know them better?
I've been thinking alot abt this ques. I've been asking alot of people what they think too. Personally, I think people change but Ms Pham said that people don't change, but you just get to know them better. But I really beg to differ. Ms Pham argued that a leopard doesn't change its spots, hence a person cannot change just like that, it's simply cos you just get to know the person slightly better and discover his/her flaws.
But really, I think people change. There's a simple logic behind my theory aka friends come and go and the reason why you don't stay friends forever with every close pal you have, is probably becos the other person or you have changed somehow. And you guys can no longer click, you guys argue over everything, and hence drift apart. Also, like becos personally, I've seen people who changed so fast and so drastically like they're totally not the person I knew in the start. And usually when this happens, even as a friend, you can't possibly tell the other person like "Hey you know you've changed..." becos the other person will probably be like "Screw you, I don't need you as a friend blah blah blah..." See, what I mean? And also, if from the start I alr knew that the person was so horrible, I wouldn't even bother getting to know the person better right???
Hence in conclusion, I think people change. What do you think?

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I'm pretty sure I'm on bad terms with half the people in the photo and we are probably superficial friends, aka hi-bye friends and I have no idea how many people from council actually reads my blog, hopefully none but haha I'm sure the feeling is mutual. Anywayz this is a nice photo and even though everyone's so fake but tadaa, I'll post it up since it's a pretty photo taken by some photog club member during Orientation 2010. Haha I think I have the tannest legs among all the girls...

Okay anyway um today I had work until 4.30pm!!! Then Ashley came to pick me up for work!!! Woah sibeh sweet leh, she srsly just came down all the way to City Hall just to buy me a donut (to atone for her sins) and after that, we took a bus down to Cathay. Bought our tickets for I Hate Valentine's Day then went to walk arnd Plaza Sing.
Oh yah I saw Lester, Marvin, Ben and Taijun. Woah miss my JC1 days of galivanting arnd the Dhoby Ghaut area after sch (provided there's no council HAHAHAHA council was my biggest obstacle and I was constantly thinking of excuses to skip meetings...)
Anyway the movie was quite nice!!! Qixuan said it was worth watching but Wilson said it suck, but in the end, Ashley and I still decided to watch it!!! Haha the movie didn't suck lah, it was really quite nice and at least there was a storyline EXCEPT I fell asleep halfway... ARGH it was a good movie and everyone knows that no matter how lousy the movie is, I die die also will not slp during a movie becos since I paid for the movie, it'll be stupid to spend $7.50 just slping in the cinema. BUT the fact that I slept during this movie, and it was a nice movie, proves how tired and exhausted I am. Omg my legs were aching like mad and I was so shagged, and Ashley's shoulders seemed like the most comfy pillow on earth and I just snoozed until like 5min to the end of the movie. Haha but overall, I got the main idea of the movie and it was really quite a nice show I think!!!! Haha!!!

After the movie, we walked to Kino to get Ashley's dumb Valentine's Day present for Jon. ZZZ. Ashley's present is really damn stupid and ex and stupid but whatever, since Jon is weird, he will probably ~*~love~*~ the present alot. Ashley said I am very mean to Jon but... aiyo that's becos no one knows how badly Jon treats my Ashley!!! And how cui Jon really is...
But aiya whatever lah, as long as Ashley is happy and she doesn't cry or pester me. Haha jokes jokes, I love you Ashley. I will get Ms Pham to convince you how lousy Jon is!!!!

"Ashley, I even know your POSB pin number leh, you not scared meh?" -Weiling
"Scared for what?" -Ashley
"I know your everything. I know you better than Jon."
"Plz, you don't know my underwear size."
"You forgot, we bought La Senza tgt... I know your size."
HAHAHA I think I know Ashley better than Jon lor, fo shizzle (Plz Jon is so lousy, I bet he doesn't know anything)

Anyway wise quote of the day from Kurt Cobain:

Nobody dies a virgin,

life fucks us all.

HAHA THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS A 40YR-OLD VIRGIN THEN. Sucker!!!!

Oh anyway right, am I really very skinny alr? I still wanna lose weight but recently alot of people have been telling me that I am sibeh skinny now. But still, size 0 FTW!!! I haven't taken my weight lately but I hope I'm below 48kg now!!! My mom looked at me that day and asked me why my face looks so bony and that day when Ashley's mom saw me, she also said I was getting skinnier. And Ashley and Qixuan also commented. This is a good sign!!! Yay I will see you bitches on the skinny side!!! I'm gonna find a weighing machine arnd and take my weight!! Hope I'm below 48kg!!! Next target would be 45kg!!!

Okay bai, got stupid work tmr!!! Btw My Queen is a damn nice drama serial! I'm only on episode 3 and I alr think the storyline very good!!! But the female lead's nose is so sharp that I suspect it's fake!!! I am gonna google up on her nose someday when I have the time. Omg I am so weird haha!!! Okay bai bai!!!

Slightly later, I walk into the ladies' room and see Ingrid sitting on a sink, crying. A small black woman with beautiful long dreads is standing in front of her speaking softly and stroking her hair. The sound of Ingrid's sobs echoes off the dank yellow tile. I start to back out of the room and my movement attracts their attention. They look at me. Ingrid is a mess. All her Teutonic cool is gone, her face is red and puffy, her makeup is in streaks, She stares at me, bleak and drained. The black woman walks over to me. She is fine and delicate and dark and sad. She stands close and speaks quietly.
"Sister," she says, "what's your name?"
I hestitate. "Clare," I finally say.
She looks back at Ingrid. "Clare. A word to wise. You are mixing in where you're not wanted. Henry, he's bad news, but he's Ingrid's bad news, and you be a fool to mess with him. You hear what I'm saying?"
I don't wanna know but I can't help myself. "What are you talking abt?"
"They were going to get married. Then Henry, he breaks it off, tells Ingrid he's sorry, never mind, just forget it. I say she's better off without him, but she doesn't listen. He treats her bad, drinks like they ain't making it no more, disappears for days and then comes arnd like nothing happened, slps with anything that stands still long enough. That's Henry. When he makes you moan and cry, don't say nobody never told you." She turns abruptly and walks back to Ingrid, who is still staring at me, who is looking at me with unconditional despair.
I must be gaping at them. "I'm sorry," I say, and then I flee.

That night, I asked Henry abt what I heard.
"Clare, very few people meet their soulmates at age six. So you gotta pass the time somehow. And Ingrid was very patient. Overly patient. Willing to put up with odd behaviour, in the hope that someday I would shape up and marry her martyred ass. And when somebody is that patient, you have to feel grateful, and then you want to hurt them. Does that make any sense?"

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The first time I heard this song was in July last yr I think. Someone sent me the lyrics of this song becos we were playing some guess the lyrics game. I have never heard this song before but the lyrics were so sad. Subsequently, I recall asking Gym if he heard this song before and I rmb asking Gym to sing it for me but he was merely chanting the lyrics. In the end, I went to dwl the song to hear it for myself and it was such a nice song except the lyrics were really horribly sad.
The song was on replay on my iPod for abt a week. It reminded me so much of the person who first texted me the lyrics, even though it was a sad song. I rmb telling the person abt how this particular song reminded me of him/her, I wrote this note in a postick and I mailed it to his/her hse. It was an envelope filled with posticks which I wrote everyday. I thought that was certainly one of the sweetest things I'd ever do for anyone.

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

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Ytd was a horrible day. I had my medicine in the morning and then had to leave the hse early for some family thing. And I was so sleepy becos of the cough mixture. Omg I fell asleep in the car, and everywhere else. Damn sleepy. Went home, ate lunch and I totally snoozed until 3plus. And by the time I woke up, I totally rushed like hell to get to work.

I had my cough medicine before I went to work and the cough mixture srsly made me feel so drowsy!!! And omg ytd there was this particular customer who was so rude to me, I swear I wanted to slap her face. Her daughter wanted to get two ugly striped shirts and denim shorts from the shop. So she asked me to get new piece. And hello, she thinks the storeroom is damn neat and accessible, she totally expected me to emerge from the storeroom with all her new pieces within what, 10seconds??? She's crazy. I mean okay, I admit I took slightly longer than usual to get out of the storeroom but omg, she wanted 3 new pieces, I need to source for the shirts right. She thinks the whole storeroom only got her shirt is it. Got one million different desgins leh, I need to flip all the shirt labels to check plz. Wtf and she totally raised her voice in my face once I stepped out of the storeroom. Before I could even open my mouth to say there's no more new piece, she said, "You took really long in there." OH PLZ.
For one, the shirts her daughter wants are really ugly. They are striped and it's horizontal stripes btw. And her daughter had a tummy so wearing horizontal stripes will only make her daughter look fatter than she alr is. And plus she thinks her daughter very pretty right... Plz, plus her daughter's wearing a size 8, not even size 6 plz??? And she thinks she's very rich, can yell at me just cos I am a sales assistant and will probably need to work for 2days just to earn enough money to get the shirt she's buying. WTF I HATE RUDE CUSTOMERS. Plz, I am not your maid and stop being so rude to me just cos I am a sales assistant. Wtf I need to end this job asap. Argh and ytd my supervisor just asked if I could work until the end of the month. WTF!!! The contract only wrote that I need to serve a 1wk notice prior to my resignation. WTF WTF WTF.
And ytd I was alr so mega sleepy and annoyed and imba hungry, and there was this old woman who kept asking me if she looks nice in her dress blah blah blah. And okay usually when I am very chirpy, I will give comments blah blah and even if they look ugly, I will just pretend to say they look fab in it, so they'll buy or whatever. But ytd I was really not in the mood to entertain talkative people. And omg I just kept nodding my head and saying yah yah yah and that customer doesn't get the hint??? And she totally kept babbling non-stop and even after I went out of the fitting room area, she talked so loudly just to get my attention? OMG.... Plz get a hold of yourself... you are not the only human in the whole shop and I cannot possibly just attend to you? And this is not the worst yet, she kept talking and talking and asking me to let her try a bigger size, smaller size blah blah and after trying like maybe 6pieces, she said, "Woah but the clothes here very expensive leh..." OMG WTF you walked into the damn shop and try on one million clothes without looking at the damn price tag??? WTF WTF WTF and I have to hang all the clothes back once you're done trying them on??? OMG???? I absolutely cannot believe this.... ARGH I hate it when people try the clothes without looking at the price tag. I mean like okay everyone can just try and they have no obligations to buy the clothes but not buying after trying on SO many pieces is totally... outrageous.
I am not being spoilt or whatever, but honestly, I am damn annoyed and I still have to smile and act courteous and be polite. Just kill me alr??? I hate my job. I know I only got an O lvls cert currently so by right, they deserve to treat me like that BUT I just cannot take it okay??? I CANNOT STAND THIS ANYMORE!!!!

I hate it when:
1) People boss me arnd
2) People scold me for stupid things
3) People scold me for the sake of scolding me
4) People who scold me are probably not that great anyway
5) People who think they damn big and own the damn world and can shout in my face
6) People who think they sibeh rich and can buy the entire shop and demand their rights in my face
Plz go and die thankz.

Anyway one good thing which happened ytd was that Ashley, her sister and mom came to visit me. And since my supervisor left early so I could entertain them!!! Hee hee!!! And anyway I found out that Ashley is a bitch and she lied to me in my face. Omg wtf lah, I didn't know until I asked Ashley's mother some ques and her mother was totally clueless abt what I was talking abt and I was so confused also and they I asked Ashley and realised she lied to me _|_

Anyway today was a really rushy day. I went with my mom to do Chinese New Year grocery shopping at Junction 8 and argh sth really embarrassing happened to me in NTUC. Then went to meet Qixuan, Wilson and Louis at Admiralty MRT and we went over to Nat's place. Helped to prepare for Nat's surprise party blah blah.
Then Nat's friends came then after a really long while then Nat appeared. Suprise!!!!

Aww Limzhen and Nat

Then we ate some food then chilled then played games. We played charades and some guess the music game followed by a game which Nat's mom taught us. It's a card game + electricity and omg I was so nervous playing the game!!! It's damn stressful cos you need to squeeze the hand of the person beside you blah blah and I squeezed the hand of the guy beside me wrongly THRICE!!! Once becos I was very excited then accidentally squeezed, then another becos I thought Qixuan squeezed my hands but she didn't and the last time was becos I think Wilson anyhow squeeze Qixuan's hands then I also just squeeze. ZZZ. Damn stressful plz. But it was quite fun hee hee!!!

Then left at 9plus I think!!! Took the train back and then Louis and I went to walk at the pasar malam at the open field in Bishan and Louis was very interested in the kites they were selling. Freak, the kites sibeh ex, like $49 and Louis is crazy. He srsly wants to buy them omg.
Then walked arnd but the pasar malam very boring then took the bus back. Was looking at Louis' iPhone on the way back and omg he got alot of Britney Spears' songs in his iPhone which I've never heard before??? Omg???

Woah anyway Michelle Wong just texted me. Woah she is sibeh sweet to the max. And is army really hell??? Why all the girlfriends in the world are complaining and crying like mad.... It's that bad ah....
And honestly how am I supposed to comfort Ashley when I don't even like Jon!!!! BASKET!!!!

I GOT WORK TMR!!!!! KILL ME ALR!!!

Currently Whatcha Say (CD Maxi) By Jason Derulo see related

I am sitting by Grandma's bed, reading Mrs Dalloway to her. It's evening. I look up, Grandma seems to be asleep. I stop reading and close the book. Her eyes open.
"Hello," I say.
"Do you ever miss him?" she asks me.
"Everyday. Every minute."
"Every minute, " she says. "Yes. It's that way, isn't it?" She turns on her side and burrows into the pillow.
"Goodnight," I say, turning out the lamp. As I stand in the dark looking down at Grandma in her bed, self-pity floods me as though I have been injected with it. It's that way, isn't it? Isn't it.

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I woke up this morning and after bathing, I immediately went to see a doctor becos my throat is very pain and I am coughing non-stop. It's crazy. I was sick in Dec until the start of Jan and now it's Feb and I'm sick again??? Omg???

Anywayz after that, my mom fetched me from the clinic and we went to Crescent for lunch. HAHAHA can you believe it??? Cos my mom and I can't decide what to eat and since it was friday, Crescent's vegetarian stall will sell their olive fried rice (YUMZ) so I suggested going back there to eat. Haha so we went!!! Had the yummy olive fried rice with egg + beehoon + corn and carrot soup + banana milkshake. Woah damn full, at this rate I will never achieve my aim of being 48kg. Sobz.
Anyway I saw Mr Lee Tiong Beng and he might need a relief teacher for Maths soon, so I kept asking him to call me if he needs one. Haha. And omg I saw Marcus Poon!!! He's this teacher who did relief teaching for my class a few times for SS and holy moly, he still rmbs me...
"Mr Poon!!! Do you rmb me?" -Weiling
"Yes. Don't tell me!!!!!!" -Marcus Poon
"I am..."
"DON'T TELL ME!!!!"
"You sure you can rmb? You only taught my class for a few lessons leh..."
"Don't tell me!!! You are from.... 4G2!!!"
"OMG how you know! Do you rmb you used to call Ashley and I the platinum blondes!!!"
"No I only called her a platinum blonde. You are just blonde."
"ZZZ."
"And now you dyed your hair so it's a self-fulfilling prophecy!"
HAHAHA Marcus Poon rmbs me!!! Omg!!! I must be every teacher's fav student!!! Everyone rmbs me!!! Either I am their fav student or their smartest student or their cutest student! HAHAHA!!!

Okay anywayz after that, my mom and I went to do our hair. My mom dyed her hair while I did treatment for mine. Omg the entire process took like 3hours??? So long and tiring!!! I srsly hate salons!!!
Then after that, my mom and I went to town to shop arnd. We were supposed to do grocery shopping but we had no time haha. Anywayz I bought a shirt and a lace top from Forever21, and I finally found my plain black tube from Mango! Yipeez!!! And I bought a nice shade of lipstick from Shu Uemura plus hairbands!!! I am so happy!!!
And I bumped into the whole world in town today! Haha not really lah but I met alot of people!!! I saw Yao, Chermaine, Gen, Audrey etc etc. Ah I need to hang with Gen soon!!!! Gen, I love you, plz don't be sad!!!

And anyway my mom and I had dinner at Domani and their pasta suckz big time!!! Anyway I ate their squid ink pasta which suckz, obviously.

HAHA becos I thought I look kewl with black teeth. Btw I looked like I had braces right!!! Haha I wanted braces so much when I was in sec sch but the dentist kept saying that there was no point for me to put on braces cos my teeth were very straight alr but I was srsly so crazy abt braces so my mom put me on this subsidy thingy at the Health Promotion Board for students and when it was finally my turn to get my braces done, I was kinda old (in Sec 4 I think) and by then, I think braces are so ugly!!! Braces are not cute when you get them when you are very old aka above Sec 2!!!! No offences but they are really ugly!!! But hope those with braces get pretty straight and white teeth when they are done with their ugly braces!!! In any case, you can beautify your teeth by getting pretty colours for your braces like deep pink or sth??? Don't ever leave it in silver cos it's damn ugly. Truthful opinion here!!!

Okay anyway enough abt braces, so anyway today was a good day I think!!! And oh yah guess who asked me out!!! It's a girl btw. Haha secret but omg, I was sincerely very shocked when I received her msg??? Haha we're having dinner tgt on Wed!!! Yipeez!!!
And oh yah Jaysen won his match today so today is an extremely good day. Plus I had no work today so it's double hurray!!! My day would be the best day ever in 2010 if Sydney Uni sent me a letter of acceptance now but they didn't, so today isn't the best day yet. Haha.

Okay my throat sibeh pain until I wanna die. I got work tmr!!! Sianz to the max!!! Joyce wanted to go Zouk tmr but I think I end my shift at 11pm tmr cos got extended shopping hours due to Chinese New Year I think. Woah sibeh sianz to the max. Anyway Ashley's coming over to visit me I think! And Joyce also!!! Hope my stinky supervisor isn't arnd so I can interact and help them choose clothes!!!

And before I go and slp, last photo for the night!!!

OMG THIS IS SO FUNNY LAH!!! Typical of my form teacher. He's so weird right but this is srsly damn funny.

And btw Gym is alr in army??? Haha ytd he told me he is botak alr and I think he'll srsly look like doraemon now!!! HAHA okay annyong!!!

OMG SCREW LIFE BITCHES!!! THIS IS THE LIFE:

I GOT ACCEPTED INTO MELBOURNE

UNI!

HAHAHA omg I am so happy and thrilled!!! And I got into Bachelor of Sci and it was my first choice since Melbourne Uni doesn't offer any double degrees. And I heard Melbourne Uni's one of the best uni in Aust apart from Uni of Sydney, except of cos if you were to pay your way into Trinity for foundation studies, you will get to Melbourne Uni easily... But then again, omg!!! I got accepted!!! Ah I hope I receive the conditional offer from Uni of Sydney soon though. I would sincerely rather get into Uni of Sydney!!!
Anyway holy moly... the total tuition fees is approx AUSD$96300 and this is excluding my living expenses etc. So my total uni education would amt to arnd SGD$125,000 excluing insurance, hostel and my living expenses. GG. And I still plan to take on post grad course for dentistry and it's really not cheap to study dentistry and omg... I better study my ass off and work super hard no matter what course I get into!!!
And omg so excited hee hee!!! If I accept this offer and my A lvls grades aren't too far off from the predicted A lvls grades, I will start my semester in July!!! MEANS EVERYONE BETTER CHERISH THEIR TIME WITH ME NOW JUST IN CASE I LEAVE SPORE SOON!!!!
HAHA I VERY EXCITED LEH!!!

Anywayz hee hee okay today was quite a good day!!! Haha I am very happy abt the Uni offer so today is considered a good day for me. Hee hee.
I went for work and during my break, I went to shop arnd and I bought a top from Topshop!!! Omg you know almost all the sales assistants in Topshop at Raffles City are guys??? Very disturbing actually. Anyway yay I am very happy!!! I got the top at a steal since I got staff discount. Heh heh heh!!!

And after work, I dashed off to Dhoby to meet Ashley for our dance class. Haha met Fionna aka the pretty girl who was from SIM and is going to study dance in Lasalle. Fionna offered Ashley and I a new job aka being tutors at Kumon!!! OMG!!! I srsly don't mind the job since I can put my knowledge into good use and help society by imparting my knowledge to the younger generation!!! Yay happy! I told her I'll tell her once I leave my job. Argh hope my boss finds a replacement by next wk so I can be free during Chinese New Year to collect my red packets!!!!   

Anyway dance today was pretty fun! We continued learning the steps for the song Tik Tok. I almost forgot all the steps I was taught last week. Haha.
And after class, Ashley and I went to Macs at Junction 8 for dinner. I only had my dinner at 10plus. I lead such a sad life right, like having irregular meals and all... HOW AM I GONNA LOSE WEIGHT LIKE THAT!!!

Anywayz Macs got twister fries now!!!

HAHAHA I LOOK GHOSTLY BUT Raybanz. And my legs look skinny!!! Must be due to the non-stop standing and walking arnd the shop!!! Woohoo skinny legs!!! I am gonna achieve skinnier legs asap!!!

And anyway I tried having a conversation with Ashley abt the outlook of life and omg really, Ashley's responses are totally different from what I always get. Maybe that's why she's my BFF!!!
"Blah blah blah what if you enter the wrong course in Uni and get the wrong guy or like find a poor guy at your workplace and end up marrying him and you guys can't afford to get a hse or a car or anything. Then won't your life be ruined forever???" -Weiling
"Then find a rich guy in your course lah." -Ashley
"What if everyone in your course is gross like the people in your class?"
"Then get into engineering lor..."
"I then don't want. I mean like it's not abt the course. What if you end up liking a damn cui guy who is damn poor and lousy and you lead a sad and poor life forever? Omg life is so depressing??? I am going through a crisis."
"No??? You're not??? Plz lah Weiling, if the guy is poor and stupid, you think you will even date him in the first place meh? ZZZ."
Ashley really introduces a new perspective in my life. What all my friends have been telling me is that I'm thinking too much and too far ahead. But really need to plan for rainy days and plan for the future!!! My future is so uncertain...

BUT ANYWAY!!! Today's a good day I think!!! My legs are aching like crapz now!!! Omg try standing from 12pm until 10pm. Damn imba my leg muscles now. And my throat srsly quite painful. Sianz!!! Anyway I got no work tmr!!! I am gonna treatment my hair tmr I think!!! Going Chinese New Year grocery shopping tmr with my mom also!!! Chinese New Year is coming!!! GONG XI FA CAI!!!

WANG WANG!!! $$$