"Sorry I got no time to talk to you, I'm busy trying to lose weight!"

HAHA today was a very exciting and eventful day!!!

Haha woke up feeling extremely lousy blah blah blah. Went to bathe and after bathing, I felt so much better!!! I have decided to stop living in this pathetic state (I HOPE I CAN DO IT) and I'm gonna channel all my energy into losing weight. Plz show your support, thanks.
Marvin has agreed to help me. So has Emi and Malcolm. Malcolm is best palz for lyfe. He has agreed to go running with me!!! We're gonna start next week!!! I hope I'm not too slow... I'm so lousy at running now becos my stamina is dying!!! My stamina last time damn imba becos of softball etc but now, I'm so fat, I pant after climbing up 4 flights of steps. I srsly need to get my fitness level back!!!!

Anywayz oh yah this is Malcolm, my neighbour of 18years...

Malcolm is the guy in red shirt with rulers and pencils in his pants. I'm the pretty girl beside him  I can't really rmb the other people except the guy third from the right, and the guy with a coke can (I think his name is Scott!!! Haha what a stupid name... sorry but srsly...) and the tallest guy in the photo is a Jap guy!!! But I forgot his name! I don't even rmb his existence??? HAHA.

And this is Malcolm now... very tall. But his hair is much much much longer now, this was taken last year at SA's open hse. Yupz yupz!!! Best neighbour!!!

Haha okay so anyway back to losing weight, I'm gonna lose weight!!! Very determined this time! I hope I don't die in the process actually. The last time I tried to lose weight (I think I was Sec 3), I declared to my entire family that I was going on a fruit diet and my mom bought like 10 types of fruits back for me, in fact she bought a whole carton of apples, and guess what! After 1 day, I gave up... HAHAHA. BUT I am not going to give up this time!!! I am very determined!!!!  (Determined face)

Okay anyway today was a very exciting day!!! Yay I'm so happy today! (Oh btw today's gonna be the last piggy day for me! I couldn't resist....)

Anywayz I met Ashley for lunch at Din Tai Fung. Xlb yummy!!!
Haha this is the climax of the entire day!!! After lunch, Ashley and I went to Marie France Bodyline Intl to check out their slimming packages! Haha freaking funny. We were debating who should ask the person abt the packages and of cos in the end, I decided to ask on Ashley's behalf becos obviously I had more guts. So anyway damn funny, we were laughing like mad alr, then I opened the door and I went to ask abt their packages. I srsly wanted to burst out laughing but must be serious!!! We're very serious abt losing weight!!! Omg actually their slimming package sibeh cheap??? Haha I expected like thousand plus, but actually only abt $350 for 15 sessions??? Not bad hor!

Okay anyway after that, we went to Coffee Bean to get our drinks. Omg I'm addicted to caramel ice blended. I've been drinking it at least twice a week since like 1 month ago. I need to stop this addiction becos I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!!
Haha and okay this part is damn funny. Ashley was gonna walk me to the bus stop and as we were walking there, this woman came up to us and gave us this pamphlet and holy moly, she was promoting slimming packages for Mary Chia!!! OMG!!! Damn funny. Ashley leapt up and jumped to the counter to find out more info and I just stood behind the pillar and laughed until I died. Omg I think I laughed very loudly but it was damn funny. Omg I srsly wanted to die!!!! And then Ashley went to talk to the people, make enquiries while I left first.

Took 156 to church. 156 is damn bloody long ride, plus it's so retarded. It passes Macritchie and actually church is damn near Macritchie but 156 had to go through CJC, SJI, Raffles Town Club then I must alight at Coronation and walk damn far. Woah waste time, and the sun was so hot. Terrible. I shld have just alighted at Macritchie and changed to 165 or 855... Anyway I dropped by Island Creamery to visit Bra for a bit then walked to church (under the freaking hot sun)

Studied in church with Luke and Ashley (Not my Ashley but Luke's Ashley, this Ashley is different from the Ashley I met for lunch!!!) Okay anyway damn funny, I asked my dad to pick me at 6pm and at 5pm, he called to say that he arrived in church alr becos he saw the time wrongly. Omg so retarded, so anyway left at 5pm. OMG I finished the entire MCQ Phys TYS from 1992 to 2001 within 2 days. Imba or what? I am going to own Phys paper 1!!!!!   (Very very determined face)

Okay then had Phys tuition just now. Ashley's coming over tmr night to swim I think!!! I hope no one hogs the pool! In fact I hope there's no one at the pool!!!! Malcolm said that swimming can tone the entire body so I hope I can lose weight!!! I used to swim twice a week in Sec 3 and I lost like 3kg plus plus within 2 months but nowadays I very lazy plus I don't wanna get a tan!!! And swimming will ruin my hair but for now, losing weight is more impt than having nice hair so I am going to swim!!!!

Okay anyway Joyce (my bitch) just posted her prom photos on FB!

YAY I like this photo becos I look damn skinny (in my opinion) but THIS IS NOT SKINNY ENOUGH. I am going to aim to be size 0, even though it's impossible. But then again impossible is nothing!!!!

New motto in life: "Nothing tastes as good as skinny feel" -Kate Moss

Omg okay I need to reply Joyce's email now! I'm very excited!!! I got alot of things to tell her!!! Hee hee hee!!!

Okay I think I'm a little crazy today but being crazy is good! Like to a certain extent... At least I'm kinda back to normal!!!! Actually sometimes I think I'm very out of this world... But yay I'm very happy today!!! Yay yay yay!!! OKAY I need to hurry reply Joyce now!!!

Bai bai!!!!

Okay bitches, left with one more paper!!! Phys paper 1. Yuckz. Anyway Chem paper 1 was disastrous. I was stunned by the first question, and second question, and third question and all the other questions. It was bad bad bad. I barely got any time to think, and I just anyhow whack and I was so blur. Argh, careless mistakes blah blah. Chem paper 1 was the worst worst worst paper ever. Argh so horrible
Anyway surprisingly, Phys paper 3 was manageable? Haha Phys paper 2 was okay too! Omg I mean I couldn't do some questions but considering how lousy my Phys is, omg I actually thought the paper was better than Prelims! Yay this is a good sign!!! But I guess Phys paper 1 would be a killer then!!!

Oh and guess what! My dad asked me two days ago, in my face, if I would rather study in Aust or US! Omg can you believe it! Haha and we actually went online to check out the universities in US! Haha quite cool. But everything so unconfirmed yet so cannot be too happy so early!!!! Actually I'm quite over the excitement alr, haha I was very very very very happy two days ago!!! But now I'm moderately okay...

Anyway ytd was a brilliant day!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIYING!!!

HAPPY BITHDAY MARVIN!!!

So ytd was two of close friends' birthday!!! Poor Marvin fell sick on his birthday haha. Actually I made plans to have lunch with Bra but it was Yiying's birthday so I had lunch with her at Shokudo instead!!!! It was a hearty lunch! Then after lunch, we walked arnd for a little!!!

HAHA my cameras died. So in a hurry, I just grabbed my polaroid.

Then after that I met Ashley for shopping. Omg we tried on soooo much clothes. I spent like $250++ ytd. I bought a cropped jacket from Zara! I'm very happy!!! I wanted a cropped jacket since very long ago!!! And I bought a nice lace dress from Neulook! It's damn damn damn pretty but I need to lose weight!!!
Oh and I bumped into quite alot of people from sch. Haha the whole Cat High gangz. Haha and Liangpei!!! Haha I haven't seen Wonky Liangpei since her birthday party! She's looking very fine and pretty!!!

Then anyway Ashley and I crashed ACS (IB) prom at Marriotts. Haha I wore my lace dress! It's very pretty! I am very happy! But I srsly need to lose more weight!!!

Yupz that's Chloe! She's so mega ultra skinny. I need to be skinny like that!!!

YAY with Joyce! Joyce is damn havoc! She just came back from Clubmed 1 day before her prom, and today she's off to Taiwan! Lucky girl!!!

HAHA I look slightly skinnier here! Joyce is damn skinny!!! Ahh I wanna be skinny!!! (Ten thousand million punction marks)

Aiyo I barely got to talk to Joyce or Chloe. I only had like 5 milliseconds with them!!! Like take photo then they zoom off. Crazy leh!!! I didn't even get to see Lizard and I forgot to call Yaoyu! Haha I haven't seen him since... I don't know. Haha.

Anyway I was rushing off too! I practically flew to Cine after taking the photos, to meet Bra and Wt. We had dinner at Subway. And we bumped into Huijia at Paragon!!! Haha then we went to watch 2012.
2012 is a very sophisticated movie (I don't know how else to describe it) It covered so many aspects of life and emotions. I was so scared during the movie, so upset, so disappointed in humanity, so stricken... I don't know. I started tearing at one part becos I was so stricken. I was just very shocked at how people can react and how devasting it was when the whole world started falling apart. Although the computer graphics were very unrealistic but really, I can't actually imagine the world falling apart. Anyway I cried towards the ending and apparently I cried very loudly. Haha I didn't know??? Haha I only know that I said, "OMG!" damn damn damn loudly alot of times. Haha.
Actually overall, I kinda like the movie? The plot's a little like Knowing. Anyway 2012 made me think alot. Like what if the world ends tmr, what if I die tmr, who would I wanna say goodbye to, would I be able to say goodbye to everyone I love...

Okay gonna try to write an email to Joyce before I get back to Phys... I srsly can't wait for this whole mess to end. Sometimes I wish the world would end tmr, so like I can say goodbye to everyone and everyone can die tgt, like you know, at least no one gets left behind?

-

If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you
I don't wanna talk about it
Cos I'm in love with you

You're the only one
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
you bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything

"So tell me where have you been all my life?"

You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you baby
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't wanna think about it
Don't wanna talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without you
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry

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I don't know what else to say but... Emi really made me alot happier ytd. I was srsly thinking abt dying (no matter how retarded that sounds now) but at that point of time, dying sounded so good. Like I'm honestly sick of this whole thing, the whole A levels thing, I can't believe everything came crashing down at the same time. Best part is that, I got no time to get over it becos I'm having exams. Like can you imagine, one day your world's so fine and the next day, it just disappears. Anyway so glad Emi sorta talked me out of it. At least she made me realise that I'm still human after all.

I think everyone's pretty sick of all my nonsense blah blah blah, even I'm sick of it myself but I can't help myself sometimes. I guess it pretty much suck to stay alone at home and all you ever do is think abt things. But really, I've got great friends. Crescent palz who stuck by me, my lovely neighbour who texts me every single night to ask if I'm okay and ask me how my papers went. Sweet people, I love everyone. But then again, love is bull...

I honestly can't wait for exams to end becos I think some shopping would do me good. I would love to watch some movies but watching movies will never ever be the same for me again, I think. I want Renee to come back so we can have some crazy time tgt. I want Bryan to come back so we can play pool and chill in his nice big house. I want this whole miserable feeling to end. Now.

Got Chem paper 1 later. I have no mood to study anymore. After this paper, it'll be Phys all the way. Phys can just go and die. And anyway my dad talked to me abt US uni ytd, I think he's thinking of sending me to US. Not too bad. Actually now I don't really mind Aust anymore. I think leaving Spore might be good for me to a certain extent. I mean, there's nothing else holding me back anymore. So maybe it would be good if I were to leave....

I don't sound very happy in this post, I guess it's reflective of my mood now. Hope I'll be okay before my Chem paper. I really wanna get A for Chem. Bye.

TOP is soooo cute, he looks like Daniel Wu???? But I think TOP hotter becos omg he raps like O.M.G.

EXACTLY ONE YEAR AGO!!!!!

Exactly one year ago, I was having so much fun at Las Vegas, shopping from day to night, from night to day.
Exactly one year later, which is today, I am studying from day to night, night to day. Woah hate Phys to the max.

OMG I CANNOT WAIT FOR A LEVELS TO END!!!!

I got so much things to do, omg haha I'm so excited!!! I want to dye my hair, dye my hair, dye my hair, do my nails, do my nails, do my nails, go shopping, buy new shoes, buy new bag, I need to buy a new bag, I want to learn Korean, or shld I learn Jap? I want to learn driving (actually not really...) and I want to take up yoga, was supposed to take up yoga after O levels haha. I want to buy new bag. I want to shop from day to night, night to day, everyday, everynight. I cannot wait. I am going to shop from Bukit Batok to Bishan, from Bishan to Orchard, from Orchard to Marina, from Marina to Kallang, from Kallang to Changi. I am going to cover the entire Singapore. I want to shop shop shop, even if I have no money but I have money so I can shop. Yay.

"Britney Spears song, haha I'm not a girl, not yet a woman. What the heck is she?"
"She's a youth."
HAHAHA this is damn funny srsly.

Okay I am going to write my bitch an email now. I thought the only person in the entire world who was allowed to call me a bitch was Joyce Ng.............
Haha and anyway bitch is a term of endearment I think???

HAHA BYE!!!