Good Dream Abt You

This morning I woke up at 6.49am and I couldn't get back to sleep. These day it's so hard getting back to sleep becos the first thing I do when I wake up is think of you. And then I can never ever get back to sleep. So anyway I switched on my phone and there were 2 msges. 1 msg from Marvin, 1 msg from Ronald. Replied both of them and I just lazed arnd in bed. And amazingly I dozed off.
I woke up at 8.10am. And I'm so glad I dozed off becos I dreamt of you. I haven't dreamt of you since a damn long time. And the dream was a good dream!!!

Okay so I dreamt that Lasalle was somehow part os St Andrew's and we had the same assembly. And omg you topped your cohort for your review and your name was announced during assembly and you shook the dean's hand in front of everyone. I felt so mega proud of you. And besides you, I dreamt that Ronald was the other person who shook the dean's hand becos he had the most improvement or sth? (HAHA I srsly don't know why I dreamt that Ronald's in Lasalle but whatever!!! This is not the highlight!)
And anyway I was so happy and I called you after the ceremony and you answered my call! I felt so happy, I finally got to hear your voice and you sounded so so so so so happy and excited. I miss your voice so much. Anyway we were talking happily and then the phone line got cut off... (ZZZ TO THE MAXXX)
And after that the dream just disintegrated into me calling Ronald and talking to Ronald over the phone the entire time and meeting him at the bus stop to go home tgt. Sian, the last part of the dream totally zzz, I don't know why you diappeared!! This must be the reason why I woke up!!!

Anyway yay I hope my dream comes true! I think it is going to come true! You worked so hard these few weeks and it's all gonna pay off tmr! OH YAH! Wear your plain white t-shirt to sch tmr becos that was what you wore in my dream!!!! I know we shldn't be superstitious but omg just wear it, just in case you know whatever I dreamt of, came true?

Good luck, this is the final lap. You can and will make it through. I'm always here with you. I love you

This Is For You:

This is a poem for my favourite boy
Who brought me so much joy
With only 3 more days
Till he get all his As
He's feeling so very stressed

All he wants is to sleep
And not hear the alarm beep
Just 3 more days
And we know hardwork pays
He must not give up now

The workload seems never ending
With 2d, 3d and more drawing
But he must hang in there
And never ever despair
Becos I have faith in him

After all this, we'll eat ice cream
And this will all be a dream Y

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You can do it! It's gonna end soon!!! I know I can't do much but I hope this made your night slightly better and maybe made you smile a little? Hang in there okay!!! Everything is going to end soon

(I hope we'll be okay after everything too  )

THE COUNTDOWN STARTS TMR.

21 more days bitches!!!!!

WISH ME LUCK

Omg srsly......

I never knew you could miss a person so much, so much that you can just go crazy. Okay I'm a little more sane than the past few days but still very much crazy becos I miss you so so so so so crazy much. Argh I want to hear your voice, smell your smell, see you, I want to see you very much.
But I need to control myself!!! Cannot annoy you, cannot irritate you, cannot text you constantly, cannot call you, must restrain!!!
Omg self control, Weiling, self control.

Woah die lah, I srsly going crazy. This is getting out of control
I want to scream and shout, and fly down to your hse but I cannot. Self control. I ended up jumping arnd in the toilet ytd becos I couldn't scream, couldn't do anything, must act normal. Omg die, I miss you so so so so so much.

(Do you know???)

Crapz, been almost 3weeks since we last met, 3weeks since I heard your voice, 3weeks since I smelt your smell, 3weeks since I went mad... OMG I CANNOT TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!!!!!!

 I miss you like mad........                 

Woah life sucks to the max now. But I'm contented just as is it becos you're no longer ignoring me!!! I think.... PLZ DON'T IGNORE ME         

I'm srsly going a little crazy. I never knew that you could miss a person so much. Srsly. I've never missed a person so much in my entire life, or loved a person so much in my entire life. I'm speaking the truth here, srsly. I mean, missing you is one thing, and missing you like mad is another  I don't know how to describe this... but I just miss you like crapz....
(Sucky feeling....)

Anyway hee hee since I cannot msg you, or like talk to you (  ) I talk to the people arnd me abt you! I don't say your name so they don't know who you are but yay I feel so happy talking abt you!!! I rmb so so so so so much abt you! But still.... I want to talk to you

ARGH A LEVELS STARTING ON TUES!!!!  I miss you so much!!! Hope I don't think abt you during my papers!!! Wish me good luck can..................................

WAHSEH I MISS YOU ALOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (one million exclaimatin marks) Basket, I cannot take it. This post is so random and the english like crapz but omg I cannot take it anymore. I need to write this somewhere if not I'll srsly go mad...
(Btw I know you hate it when I say wahseh but omg I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE ARGH!!!!)

Okay I need to bathe now... OMG I hope you'll reply me tonight  Crapz, miss you like mad. Argh, I think it's 11.11 stuck on your watch (or is it mine...)  This is baddy, yikes.

Okay bye bye, I love you plenty plenty plenty!!!! I hope I don't annoy you...  Give you kissy before I end the post!

(Cos with you, I'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand  )

Hello everyone! I'm feeling much much much better now!

Ytd I went to church to study becos I thought a change of environment would do me good and it did! I studied with Luke and Cynric and they are funny people so they made me feel alot happier!!! I finished my Maths revision ytd and I hope I can finish my GP by today!!! Yeah!!!

Only 3 more days to A levels, must hang in there no matter what! The past few days were like hell but so glad that things are becoming better! I must be patient and stop focussing on the bad things!!!

Ytd I actually felt happy. Haha I texted Zach after seeing his FB status to encourage him (ironic right haha) and his text really made me smile, "... This made my night..." Woah at least I felt like someone appreciated my existence lah, haha. Yay so happy that I made someone's night, and I think Zach's text made my night too!!!

Thank you everyone for their constant prayers, texts of encouragement, hugs, and allowing me to wet their shirt when I cry. Thank you so so so so so much! Hope you guys are fine too!!!

Must hang in there no matter what!!!

Oh yah I heard a really nice song on Cynric's iPod ytd. I've heard this song before but I never really knew the title or singer until ytd! It's so nice but sooooo sad. Omg saddest song ever but haha I'm feeling so so so much better now, so listening to sad songs don't affect me that much anymore!!!

What abt now by Chris Daughtry

Shadows fill an empty heart as love is fading
From all the things that we are but are not saying
Can we see beyond the scars and make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky and open up to
The ways you made me feel alive, the ways I loved you
For all the things that never died
To make it through the night, love will find you

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late, what about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes to start a new day
This broken heart can still survive with a touch of your grace
Shadows fade into the light
I am by your side, where love will find you

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late, what about now?

Now that we're here, now that we've come this far
Just hold on
There is nothing to fear, for I am right beside you
For all my life, I am yours

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late, baby, before it's too late
Baby, before it's too late, what about now?

Have a pleasant day ahead everyone! Study hard!!!

(Hang in there okay, I love you alot still, always and always here for you  )